Hello to everyone who has taken time to come and view this page and a big thank you to you all that donate.
This page is dedicated to a year of various fundraising events as a massive thank you to Southmead hospital.
I have currently completed 9 of 12 runs including my first full marathon which was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I have never ached so much in all my life. I have never felt lonelier than I did at mile 18 either. With all that being said I do intend in booking another as I wasn't particularly happy with my time.
The next run I have which will be number 10 is the bournemouth half marathon on Sunday 2nd October. Then I will have just 2 left. What a year! I'm hoping to get a personal best here.
All we do, we do in memory of my precious daughters.
Here is the drive behind us...
I'm Emy and I am a proud mummy to two angel daughters and one earth baby boy. This is my story (I have tried to keep it as brief as I can) and the reason we are fundraising for southmead hospital.
Growing up being a mummy was all I ever wanted, I didn't want a career, I just wanted to work to earn enough money to support a family. I thought when the time came it would be as easy as that...who knew I could be so wrong.
In 2011 I found out I was expecting a beautiful baby. I was a care free first time mummy who never thought there could be any complications. This was my time.
The pregnancy went smoothly until I was 17 weeks when i started bleeding...heavily. I was in and out of my local hospital and the bleeding was constantly put down to a low lying placenta.
At 23+5 I had a heavy bleed whilst in hospital, the drs did an examination and I was already 6cm dilated. There was nothing they could do. My gorgeous princess was on her way. If she was born Alive I was told I would get to hold her until she passed as she was not classed as viable.
After a 12 hour labour, forcep delivery and an epidural Isabelle Evelyn was born sleeping much to my relief, I don't think I would ever have got over watching our daughter struggle for breath.
I chose not to have a post mortem but from tests on the placenta it showed my placenta had broken down due to a virus called cytomegalovirus.
Isabelle was born 8/9/11. She was absolutely perfect, just small. She made me a mummy.
Unfortunately hubby and I had no joy trying for another baby after this. Months passed, then a year and finally 18 months later March 2013 the fertility clinic at my local hospital gave me a laparoscopy where we were told that my tubes were blocked with scar tissue and we would never concieve naturally. The only way we would have a baby was ivf. We applied for funding and thankfully got accepted for 2 attempts on the nhs. Treatment started and we were absolutely blessed to fall first time in the July. We were elated. Lightening doesn't strike twice right?
We were so good we held off buying anything. We tried to contain our excitement but surely this had to be our time? We had fought so hard to get here.
Again we found out we were expecting a beautiful baby girl. And we had her name picked out before she was conceived. Everything was so different. My symptoms were Stronger, no bleeding at 17 weeks, a cervical stitch put in at 20 weeks and we made it until 24 weeks. Then on Christmas Day 2013 I bled heavily again, I was rushed to hospital where they wanted to cut my stitch. We asked to be moved to a specialist baby hospital. I was blue lighted to southmead hospital that night. The next 2 days were crucial for the steroids to get into my system for the baby. My contractions came and went but we made it the 48 hours then at 24+5 the drs decided to do a elective section as it would be less stressful than an emergency and Adelaide rosemary was born that evening. She let out a beautiful cry. She was beautiful just small. Not as small as her sister. We knew it would be up and down in neonatal as she was so premature but we didn't expect her to only live an hour. Not even the Drs did.
Unfortunately Adelaide only lived the hour because they couldn't get a tube in her lungs to support her breathing, due to her prematurity this was crucial as her lungs weren't quite developed. At her post mortem it turned out Adelaide had pneomonia from an infection in my uterus. So the water meant there was no room for the tubes. Just like her sister we had Adelaide with us overnight. We took photos and made memories with her. The girls looked very similar. Adelaide was born 27/12/13.
Then in April 2014 we decided to give ivf one last go, if we didn't get an earth baby from this then we wouldn't try again. We couldn't go through the heartache again.
Again we hit another bump, None of our frozen embryos from Adelaides cycle survived the dethaw, maybe it just wasnt meant to be be. We started another fresh cycle, our last fresh cycle on the nhs. We were pregnant...AGAIN.
Third time lucky right? Well yes it was thanks to the help of the fantastic maternity unit at Southmead hospital.
Lennox was born 09/12/2014. Our rainbow baby at 32+4 gestation.
A “rainbow baby” is a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss.In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows a storm and gives hope of things getting better. The rainbow is more appreciated having just experienced the storm in comparison.
The storm (pregnancy loss) has already happened and nothing can change that experience. Storm-clouds might still be overhead as the family continue to cope with the loss, but something colourful and bright has emerged from the darkness and misery.
When I lost Adelaide a Dr at Southmead who we hold very close to our hearts suggested he do all of my care going forward. So prior to having our last attempt at Ivf Southmead carried out their own laparoscopy and hysterscopy to see just what they would be working with going forward, they contacted our Ivf clinic to discuss the care and told me to get in contact when I was pregnant again.
Southmead cared for us for over a year in the end.
When we were pregnant again southmead saw us every week to 2 weeks to check on the baby and my cervix. Sometimes even weekly. I had a five week hospital stay at Southmead between 23 and 28 weeks to get me to a safer gestation. All the midwives were fantastic and always trying to reassure me that this was our time and our happy ending was coming. They made my stay a lot more bearable and made me feel as at home as they could.
Whilst in hospital I met other ladies who were having problems and were having to have long term stays too because hospitals local to them same as me didn't offer any specialist care. Some of us were over an hour away from our loved ones so we kept each other good company.
In December 2014 at 32+4 I had a planned section and finally held my earth baby. He spent just 5 days in NICU Southmead before being moved back to our local SCBU unit. Lennox is 18 months now and is absolutely thriving. He is a heart healer and our girls have done us proud keeping him safe.
The staff in Southmead NICU were equally as amazing as the maternity staff. They have a very hard job making mummies and daddies feel comfortable and at ease with all the beeping machines and other poorly babies they have to look after.
I will never find the words to thank Southmead Hospital for giving my family our miracle so I'm hoping this will show my gratitude.
The money can be well spent helping other women like me get their happily ever afters...